Replacing Anxiety, Finding Identity

  For me, one of the most terrifying requests to pray is that God will reveal my sin to me and show me the areas he wants me to grow in. The reason it's so terrifying is because asking him for this requires that I am ready for how he will answer me and most of the time the answers will be uncomfortable. Over the last two years, this prayer has been answered in different ways and situations but there is a common issue at heart, and that is how I deal with fear and anxiety. I've had stomach issues since childhood. Some of them are related to food (I know … [Read more...]

Three Tips When Studying Your Bible Seems Impossible

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  With the birth of our baby in March came the usual accessories: sleepless nights, daytime fatigue, extreme emotions (crying baby and me), and we even topped it all off with some health issues for the both of us. Add to that four other darlings who need constant love and attention, and some less-than-ideal life situations and it seemed like we had the perfect storm.  I felt sapped and was so tired, and so quick to get stuck reading my Bible and getting anything out of it. I kept reading it because I knew I needed to, I wanted to dig deeper, but … [Read more...]

When You’ve Lost a Whole Month (or Year) of Your Life

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Last year, my husband set up this blog and a blog Facebook page for me and gave me a little verbal push. He said, "Here, go be brave and start publishing everything you've been hoarding in Microsoft Word." Brave is something that I'm just not, but it's something that I'm trying to learn to be. To be totally and humiliatingly honest, I spent much of 2015 living in fear. The year started off very painfully, and continued to be painful mid-year as we lost a tiny baby last April. It ended up being both the hardest and the best year of our marriage, but it took many … [Read more...]

On Babies Lost

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I woke up in the middle of the night a few nights ago crying over babies lost. As a mother who has had to say goodbye in the past to babies in my womb, as recently as this past April, my heart hurts over women who make a choice to abort, feeling like they are trapped and alone and hopeless. One thing I wish I could tell every mother who has lost a child, by choice or not, is that I have hope and peace that passes understanding, but it is because I have Jesus. I know my God is good. He is wisdom and justice and love. He forgives the vilest of sinners, and He rejoices … [Read more...]

Children of Light

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I've been watching something playing out over the last week or so and thinking on it a lot. It's kind of a tale of two different churches. I have friends in both. (Really, it's a tale of a lot of churches, but I just want to talk about these two briefly.) One of the churches wants to talk about grace and inclusion. I like the sound of that, especially if it means people are being brought into God's family. The other church wants to talk about the truth of grace. I like hearing the truth, even if it hurts. I know not everyone feels this way, but deep down no one … [Read more...]