Replacing Anxiety, Finding Identity

  For me, one of the most terrifying requests to pray is that God will reveal my sin to me and show me the areas he wants me to grow in. The reason it's so terrifying is because asking him for this requires that I am ready for how he will answer me and most of the time the answers will be uncomfortable. Over the last two years, this prayer has been answered in different ways and situations but there is a common issue at heart, and that is how I deal with fear and anxiety. I've had stomach issues since childhood. Some of them are related to food (I know … [Read more...]

Three Tips When Studying Your Bible Seems Impossible

PC: Kathleen Marie Photography

  With the birth of our baby in March came the usual accessories: sleepless nights, daytime fatigue, extreme emotions (crying baby and me), and we even topped it all off with some health issues for the both of us. Add to that four other darlings who need constant love and attention, and some less-than-ideal life situations and it seemed like we had the perfect storm.  I felt sapped and was so tired, and so quick to get stuck reading my Bible and getting anything out of it. I kept reading it because I knew I needed to, I wanted to dig deeper, but … [Read more...]

When You’ve Lost a Whole Month (or Year) of Your Life

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Last year, my husband set up this blog and a blog Facebook page for me and gave me a little verbal push. He said, "Here, go be brave and start publishing everything you've been hoarding in Microsoft Word." Brave is something that I'm just not, but it's something that I'm trying to learn to be. To be totally and humiliatingly honest, I spent much of 2015 living in fear. The year started off very painfully, and continued to be painful mid-year as we lost a tiny baby last April. It ended up being both the hardest and the best year of our marriage, but it took many … [Read more...]

So Much More Than Childbirth

Somehow, finding Legos in the sugar dish seems completely reasonable.

A week has gone by since Mother’s Day and so much in the last few days has made me reflect on mothering. Monday morning, I went to the washing machine to move jeans into the dryer and found very clean rocks, Lego hands, and plastic Playmobil swords. What did I expect? Well, not Lego hands – I was surprised they survived the washing machine and didn’t get lost in the drainage. But the rocks? Yeah, I have boys and boys play outside and hoard things in their pockets, and I don’t always catch everything that gets thrown into the hamper along with the dirty … [Read more...]

Pouring Out

The sweet ones I get to be poured out for. Photo credit: Katie Morin

  I do write things down that I've already done, and I love this meme because it makes me think maybe you're doing it, too. I also like to remind myself of the things that I already know. It’s been one of "those" days and so here I am at nap time, finally getting a cup of coffee and writing down one of these things to tell truth to myself so I don’t get as off-base as I feel like I might end up being today.   “Do all things without grumbling or disputing, that you may be blameless and innocent, children of God without blemish in the midst of a … [Read more...]